Struggles

Hi my long 'abandoned' blog...

Well, actually I am not totally abandoning it...knowing that I've been thinking of doing major revamp, of the content and display...or simply quit.

If you've been following my previous post, you know now I have been battling major illness issue, which is very debilitating. I don't know how long I will be recover...or if I will ever recover.

However, being plunged into such journey does give me lots of meditation and lesson, and I am just wondering should I simply write a blog post or maybe expand it longer. When I have the energy, of course :)

SO many things I want to write...and so little energy to accommodate :) Means I have to learn to prioritize...

One of the things I've been thinking is to change to theme of this blog. All this time, I have written my meditation and spiritual lessons which I have learnt as a commemoration of God's love and work in my life.

No, I don't want to change that yet. I still think it should be written.

But on the other hand, I have other issues I would love to write about, especially now I have 'invisible' illness :P I think maybe the sharing of my journey with God can be a blessings for those who found themselves, like me, suddenly dumped into the journey of nightmares, with no warning before.

However, I don't want my posts to be an endless ranting or complaints. I guess this is just me. Yeah, it's painful and sometimes can be very frustrating, but I still think, God is good, even when my condition is not good. So yeah, there will be post on my bad situations, but certainly, I can't wait to share God's goodness in the midst of all of these.

Bear with me my friend, when I have another burst of energy, I will come back and write. I can't promise it will be regular, but yeah, I am not giving up yet (still by the grace of God).

Till we meet again...:)

On the weak side

This morning I got a beautiful song from my sis across the sea :)

Thanks sis for lifting my spirit up and reminding me of wonderful truth of the power of God and the love of Christ.

One of the lessons I learnt lately in my weak moments is that the love of God require no performance. Instead, His love gives strength to those who are weak.

Despite all the pain and struggles, I give thanks to God that through these weak moments, He teaches me of how deep His love and how great His power is. What a hope I have in Jesus!

Thank You Lord :)

Present Miracle

Lately, I haven't been able to blog a lot. The reason is because I was sick, very sick. However, it take some time to figure things out since the cause is not widely recognized by the mainstream medical practitioner (It took me almost 1 year to find the right doctor who is aware of the issues and can do the right diagnosis all the while I got worse throughout time).

Today I got the test result from the doctor and I realized that how I have been breathing miracle all this time. Despite all the pain and weaknesses that my body felt, God has sustained me throughout this debilitating journey. I live the truth of His strength is made perfect in my weakness (2 Cor 12:9).

I've just find out the causes, I haven't even started the treatment. As the doctor said that he is surprised to see my condition once he learned about the test result (I thought all this time my condition is already really bad, but apparently it could be worse), I realized that it is only by God's grace, I can still live today despite all my weaknesses. Surely, I am experiencing miracle even though I'm still feeling sick. I thank God, not for the illness, but due to the illness, I learn a lot of things regarding health and also deepen my understanding of His loving character. Indeed, He is good, wonderful, and loving God.

So, I want to share with all of you one of my fave songs:



Lord, thank You for sustaining me all this time. I never know how deep the miracle of Your strength until I realized how weak I am. Thank You Lord Jesus, Amen.